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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Good morning Barnyard (:

Shit, I'm trying to clean my room but it's totally not working. And seeing to the fact that I'm so OCD you can only imagine how messy my room is right now. And I have to totally completely clean it so that Michelle, Daniel and Aunty Val can come sleep in here.

And then Ben and I have to go sleep in my parents' room. Which sucks cos it means that they'll know how late I'm online until. I don't see why I can't just stay here and share this room with Michelle and Daniel -.- Less stuff to move, you know.

Okay whatever.

Other than that the past few days have been really boring. Strangely enough my MMR shot doesn't hurt at all, but I guess that's cos being the wimp that I am, the doctor used a different needle so that it wouldn't hurt as much later. Heh.

I hate our stupid holiday homework, and every time I tell myself that I have nothing to do there's a constant little reminder going HELLO YOU HAVE HOLIDAY HOMEWORK ._. So technically I have a lot to do, just not a lot that I want to do.

And I want to meet up with my friends more often but so much gets in the way. Training, tuition, piano. SDC.

Sucks to be a student in Singapore huh.


Wednesday, November 25, 2009



I think you should know that you don't have to smile through your tears.

You don't have to tell yourself that everything's gonna be okay, because nothing's gonna be okay if you don't make it okay. You don't have to pretend that there's nothing wrong. You don't have to wear a mask.

Because that would mean that you're running away from yourself. And let's face it, what you need now is to find yourself.


Monday, November 23, 2009

~JAI HOS AND BANANAS~

For some reason ah lian sigh looks damn weird in this font. Hmmm.

Anyway, I'M AN ONLY CHILD FOR THE NEXT CHI DAYS :D I mean, not really, cos technically the first day is over. But you know. Ben's at P5 adventure camp. Kinda miss having him around to talk to though l: Good ol little Ben.

Cos of that I was woken up at like 6 something cos Ben was running around trying to find things to pack cos he hadn't finished packing already. But other than that I officially woke up at 9ish, had breakfast then went to school for dance! I thought it would stupid and lame, but it was quite fun

I guess that's what dance is about. It makes you happy no matter what. And the whole time Tess and I were being stupid and laughing at everything, so that helped. Heehee The dances were really good, and Claire was funny and encouraging and stuff, so YAY CLAIRE.

Went out for lunch with Tess after dance Spent ages trying to decide where, and in the end we decided on Burger Shack. Got there, were rebels by walking in through non-main entrance and were chased out cos it was closed l: Ultimate loser or what.

So we ate at New York New York instead (: Lunch was great, DESSERT WAS DABOMB HAHAHAHAHAHA. Long story.

And since then, I've just been a loser at home doing nothing. No Ben to do lame things with. SHIDDY his birthday is so soon, I have no idea what to get him. Wanted to buy This is It DVD for him, but couldn't find ): WHY CHINA HAVE WE DON'T HAVE?!

Stupid China one step ahead.


Saturday, November 21, 2009

I Love You, Men (HAHAHA fail)

(This bit was written on Friday night)
I wanted the title to be true to the movie title, so I couldn't make it 'guys' so I had to make it 'men'. So I say first ah- I'm not some weirdo who goes around saying I LOVE YOU, MEN!!!! Okay.

Anyway, sleepover at Amo's was super fun

On the first day, Bev and I reached there a little after 5.30 but no one was there yet, not even Anmol (-.-) so we just fooled around and waited. Then Anna showed up, and then at long last Anmol came and then Carolyn came. Then we did nothing (-.-), had dinner annen went SWIMMING! :D

It was 8 something- 9 something, and it was SO COLD. Worse than Beijing, cos at least there you can wear jackets and at least there you're not WET too.

Anyway, Rachel FINALLY came after that (she was having too much fun eating Markaroni) and we watched I Love You, Man. We really should NOT have watched it S: Quite gross, very gay, extremely vulgar. Aiyoh.

Went upstairs and fooled around for ages, and we finally went to sleep with Bev on Anmol's bed, Rachie, Anmol, Anna and me on the big mattress, and Carolyn on her own single mattress cos she doesn't like to share -.- Played Truth or Truth forEVER and then went to sleep at 2ish or 3ish I think.

Woke up annen slept and woke up (repeated this cycle a few times) before dragging ourselves downstairs to get our breakfast and then walk to school. Got blisters from stupid slippers l: Collected or packs and then cabbed back to Anmol's and we WENT SWIMMING AGAIN!

On a slightly sad note, my stupid underwater camera is dead because water got into it. Stupid underwater cam, YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE IMMUNE TO WATER-RELATED SPOILAGES D: I don't know if spoilages is a word. Other than that swimming was so fun (:

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(Written now)
Hello. Ballet has been tiring and Mrs Cheong (quote Binky) has been trying to be strict nowadays. Other than that my life's been really boring l:

Painted my nails (***** and *****) and now I get the sms that we're supposed to go audition for Claire's dance night dance in school /: Sigh. Very sian, I'm still thinking about if I should go.

Blog tomorrow after our walk and the Friends come over.


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Damn it, Miley.

For as long as I can remember that it was cool to say so, I've said that I hate Miley Cyrus. And before this I didn't exactly have a reason to hate her, other than the fact she's 'uncool' and 'has an annoying voice', etc. Reasons voiced by the rest of the world that I just echoed.

But tonight I watched some interviews that she did and DAMN, I never knew that she was so rude! I thought that she was meant to be a role model to her little fans! Is this how you're a role model?

The interviewer seemed so eager to know the answer to the question- which Jay-Z song was it that she was singing about in Party in the USA? And without hesitation, she says "I've never heard a Jay-Z song. I don't listen to pop music. ['Party in the U.S.A.'] is not even my style of music", and the only reason she chose it was because "I needed something to go with my clothing line. I didn't write it".

Let's break these two stupid statements down into parts.

1) I've never heard a Jay-Z song
What kind of stupid artist has NEVER heard another famous artist's song? I'm sure Miley Cyrus listens to the radio, right? Wrong, I guess. Jay-Z has had a lot of new songs recently (Empire State of Mind, Run this Town) and I don't see how she could have missed them when they played on the radio.

And how RUDE is it for her to just say that? Not that Jay-Z gives a shit about what Miley Cyrus says, but I think it's absolutely rude to say that. If I were her, I would have just told a little white lie, like "It wasn't about one song in particular". Gosh.

2) I don't listen to pop music. Party in the USA is not my style of music
WTF. Your annoying Hannah Montana is the epitome of all that is tweenie pop music today.

And in saying that you don't listen to pop music, don't you think you're offending all your precious Disney friends who are supposedly 'like your family' and all that rubbish!? And if you don't consider your music pop, then what is it? Country? Hell, Taylor Swift is half-country half pop, Carrie Underwood might be 75% country most of the time, YOU ARE NOT.

How can party in the USA not be your style of music? All your stupid Hannah Montana songs are just like it, in fact 346852086945023 times worse. And it must just suck to be you then, cos your actual style of music (crap like Fly on the Wall, 7 Things) does shit in the music scene, and what ISN'T your style gets to #1. So this sounds childish, but that makes you a loser.

3) Honestly, I picked that song because I needed something to go with my clothing line.
Did you HAVE to phrase it like that?

If I was the songwriter, I would feel pretty lousy right about now, cos now I know that Miley Cyrus didn't pick my song for how it sounds, but just cos it goes with her clothing line!

Damn it, Miley, these songs (and the people behind them) are not there at your disposal! Even though you think you're some huge superstar (your fan club consists of little girls who don't know better and middle-aged men), it doesn't give you the right to be so rude.

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Yeah, so that was reason #1. Yeah I know, you don't wanna read any more but YOU SHOULD cos by the end of this post I hope everyone else hates Miley and this time, with good reason.

I'm sure that you've heard of Fuzzy, the cat whose life is on the line because some crazy deranged fan has this idea that if she threatens to kill and eat her cat, Miley with return to Twitter.

There are 2 things that are so wrong in this situation. Firstly, what kind of idiot loves Miley so much that he's willing to sacrifice his cat just to get Miley back on Twitter- where, let's be frank, all she did was post emo love quotes and stupid things about doing stuff with @mommytish.

Although he justifies the killing and eating of her cat to be legal, it doesn't make it ethical! Being legal by law doesn't mean that you can just go ahead and do it, because it's so morally wrong to take away the life of a living creature for NOTHING.

What's gonna come out of the killing? Miley isn't gonna care. Idiot, move on with your life and stop obsessing over Miley's tweets, cos it's just WEIRD.

The other thing that sucks about this situation is the way that Miley is handling it. I know that it's none of her business and that she doesn't need to care, but on the other hand, can't she see that this little fanatic loser obviously cares a lot about her and wants to see more of her life because she is retarded is a fan?

The way Miley responded and has been commenting on the situation puts the cat-lady in a very bad place, cos it seems as though other than not giving a shit about her, Miley also thinks that she is stupid. Which crosses the line of neutral, if you get what I mean. In which case it SUCKS to be the Fuzzy-killer, cos Miley (your IDOL) is making fun of you to the whole world!

And you might be thinking, MILEY CYRUS IS A BUSY PERSON! She has better things to do than to sit around thinking of cats etc, but think of it this way- Fuzzy is a living creature and Miley Cyrus is no better than it in terms of achievements, cos you're only as good as the people you inspire, and I guess for Miley Cyrus, that should be NONE.

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In a nutshell, Miley Cyrus is a bitch needs to be more thoughtful to other people.



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